Sitting in a diner with my coffee refilled for the fifth time, (yes I drink that much), I am depleted to say the least with my eyes puffy from crying myself to sleep the night before. This journey is not what I planned. Another rough patch we are experiencing in our special needs parenting journey. The pain, the anger, and lack of knowing what the right thing to do comes flooding back in and yet I keep soldiering on, because that is what us Momma’s do right? We pick ourselves back up and keep walking through the messes. We continue to go on with our day regardless of the fact that we haven’t showered, done our hair in days or did that workout that we told ourselves we were going to do the day before. We get up and go to work during the day or at night and then come home to laundry, grocery shopping, cleaning, meal planning, and the role of supportive wife on top of all that.
Someday’s I get it right and someday’s I don’t. This week I did not. Navigating the world my son lives in and how he experiences it still is an adjustment. The increased withdrawing, meltdowns, and lack of connection this week has broken my heart. I am continuing to learn daily what works for him and what doesn’t. I am not even a year into his diagnosis so what do I expect? Perfection? NO! Of Course I can’t. I just have to keep going, keep learning, keep pushing, because that is what WE do as Momma’s! We soldier on!
I know there is another Momma out there reading this who is feeling depleted. Feeling like the weight of the world and her family is on her shoulder’s. I say to you and myself, “Keep Soldiering on Momma!” Regardless of the circumstances, regardless of the fact that you just can’t seem to get it all right….know that you CAN make it! We have to make it! Being a soldiering Momma is not easy but it is definitely worth it! You are enough, you are loved, I believe in you, and so does God! Below I wanted to share some verses that I have leaned on this week to help push me through and keep soldiering on. I hope that you can read these and feel the love of God empowering you to continue to be the best Momma to those littles just like you always have been! I am calling these my “Soldier On Momma Verses”
Soldier On Momma Verses:
“Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love Him.” -James 1:12 NIV
“I can do all this through Him who gives me strength” -Philippians 4:13
“Look to the Lord and His strength; seek His face always.” – 1 Chronicles 16:11