As many of you know, I am very transparent about my life and the struggles I go through. I feel that being this way helps people who maybe going through similar circumstances. Being fake and acting like everything is fine and dandy, I think, only hurts people and sets other’s up for feeling insignificant and alone.
As a new first time mom, only a month in, I have experienced a variety of feelings. They range from Pure joy, anxiety, exhaustion, frustration, sadness, and many more. No one fully prepares you for motherhood. While all of these feelings are HIGHLY common, for someone like me, I have to keep a close eye on them. The reasoning is because of my history. That being said, I have God in my life and I praise HIM daily because God is sufficient enough for me to get through the variety of feelings I experience.
A Church friend of mine posted on her Facebook page that she was going to do an online Book/Bible Study through Proverbs31 Ministries. They are an online blog for Women started by the wonderful Lysa TerKeurst. The book/bible study that she mentioned was for the book, “Am I messing up my kids….and other questions every mom asks.” I looked into it and thought that this would be the perfect opportunity for me to ease into motherhood with some help from Godly Women and God! I also feel it was God’s way of saying…”Come on Carolyn, this will help, do it!”
The study starts today and I will be blogging every Wednesday about my thoughts through this 6 week study. Be prepared for it to be honest, transparent, and real. Being a mom so far I have found out is LIFE CHANGING. It is definitely for the better, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t come with some hardships. I am looking forward to writing about this as well as sharing some weekly pictures of my beautiful/handsome son, Wyatt Rockwood-John Decker.
Remember you are all, WONDERFULLY MADE!