I came to HIM as an empty, shameful, and broken shell of a woman. Not knowing if HIS grace would cover me with Love. I was scared, ashamed, broken and wanted to run. Something made me stay though. Prepared before me, a path to forgiveness and grace was made just for me. Papa God was waiting for me, HE orchestrated this exact moment. I was welcomed back to HIS mercy that I thought I knew as a kid, but in fact I never truly experienced it until now.
You see, the destructive and painful path I came from, HE allowed me to follow. Those moments of my past prepared me for this. Are you wondering what “this” is?
The “this” I am talking about is the current life and blessings I am flourishing in. See, when I came back to Papa God, I was unaware of the amazing blessings that were coming my way. He took my empty shell and breathed life into me. It isn’t until now, that I look back and see the 3 things that occurred.
1. HE Forgave me!
His forgiveness and washing away of my sins and past allowed me to move forward and beyond the things I thought identified me as a person. Now, my identity is in HIM! Once my identity was found in HIM, the real change in my life happened. I dove into serving in Church which led to more blessings. Once my focus was entirely on HIM, he delivered me a blessing that completely changed my life. Into my life, walked the Man of my dreams, my husband. Once I was able to love myself, God entrusted me with truly loving someone in every sense of the word.
2. HE Healed me!
True healing does not come from just stopping something. True healing comes from hard work, prayer, and faith that God can tackle anything that you face in life. I never in a million years thought that I could move on from my Eating Disorder fully or that I could forgive myself for past mistakes. The Bible says God sent HIS son to forgive us and save us! If God can forgive me of my past and heal me, HE will definitely do the same for you!
3. HE gave me New Purpose!
I am still figuring out what path God is taking me down, but with my new role as a mom, it has given me a new perspective on what God wants me to be. For so long a career was what defined me. I spent years in school and years working in what I thought was a career that God wanted me in. What I didn’t realize was this was part of HIS plan to prepare me for greater things in my future. He wants me to serve HIM and share my story. I am still trying to figure out the rest. It is scary to walk through some of the opened doors HE puts in my path but,
I can’t say it’s not exciting!
I encourage you all today who are struggling with your relationship with God due to hurts, addictions, or whatever else; turn to God and just start talking to HIM about it. It doesn’t have to be anything fancy, just talk. Papa God is listening and will point you to a brighter future of healing and peace. He is waiting for you with open arms. Go to HIM and HE will give you rest!
“I am leaving you with a gift, Peace of Mind and Heart. And the Peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.” -John 14:27 (NLT)
Remember, you are WONDERFULLY MADE!