“Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
Any person that I know that struggles with a Mental Illness such as Depression, Anxiety, Panic Disorder, BiPolar Disorder, etc… are some of the most resilient people I know. All of these Mental Illnesses are so common, but few even notice they have it. Those who do, struggle, but try to make the best of it. For me, I have been blessed…. yes I said blessed with a gamut of diagnoses. Panic D/O, Depression, and the good ole’ Eating Disorder Anorexia/Bulimia, which I might add I am in my 8th year of recovery from. There is not much talk within the Christian world that I hear about the plight of those of us who are Christian and suffer with some sort of Mental Illness. When there is talk, it is usually about how God can heal you completely from it. I agree that yes, God can heal someone of their struggle, however, I feel that healing comes in different contexts. As we all know…. God has something up his sleeve for each of us.
In my experiences, which have been many, my struggles with Panic Disorder, Depression and my Eating Disorder have been, well… all-encompassing. All of my energy was taken up dealing with the symptoms. It was torture and at times it still is. Recently I have been dealing with the symptoms of my Panic Disorder coming back. After a year and a half of no attacks, the past two weeks have been very tough. Many other people I know have worked very hard to have their symptoms subside, but unfortunately sometimes, they don’t. That leaves many of us Christian’s with the question of why has God not healed me of this? I think I may have an answer.
Scripture says in 2 Corinthians 12:9 “Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.”
God is with us always, even through our struggles. God does not want us to be discouraged. There is a reason for your struggles.
For many years I had the WHY ME syndrome. What I have learned is that God has brought healing to me in different ways. He has blessed me with doctors who care about me and have taken the time to work with me to help me through these diagnoses. He has blessed me with family who support me and are there for me when I am dealing with symptoms. Finally he has blessed me with special gifts that he uses within me to help others. I feel that God has blessed me with my diagnoses (as hard as they are) because he has a bigger purpose for them. They are a pain in the butt sometimes, however, I know that God is using me as a tool to reach out to others and help them with their own diagnoses.
I feel that God hasn’t fully healed me completely because God is using it! Do not be disheartened by your struggles, the devil wants you to feel defeated. God, however, uses them to EMPOWER and use them for good! Don’t be stuck with the WHY ME syndrome. God has too much planned for you.
2 Corinthians 12:9 “Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.”