God blesses us all with gifts and throughout our life, God brings them to our attention and wants us to develop them and use them for the good of HIS purpose. I have been blessed with many gifts. It has become apparent that my gifts are writing, ability to work with people and music/singing. Now, I have a confession to make. For a while, I have been ignoring one of them. I have been ignoring and staying away from my music and singing. I know a lot of people have been talking to me about it, especially some of the people who are closest to me. What I have noticed though is that the reason why I have been ignoring it is because, well…. I have let someone else’s opinion of my ability detour me away from it and made me feel that maybe it was God’s way of saying that it’s not such a gift.
I know!! You are probably reading this saying, Carolyn, you are letting someone else’s perception of you get in the way of God’s purpose and plan for your life! I KNOW!! So I unfortunately have realized this after a while of ignoring my love and passion for music. So, now I am taking this as an opportunity to learn, write, and give some feedback to others that may be going through something similar.
I write a lot about having confidence in yourself and I know people in my life hear me saying that to them. Sometimes giving advice is easier than taking your own.
For about a year now, I have let someone’s personal opinion and words shake me to the core about something I have been passionate about since I was a little girl singing to my stuffed animals! I have completely ignored God in this area of my life. Here God has given me this amazing gift of song and song writing and I haven’t done much with it to Glorify HIM!!!!
Just this past weekend I went to a recording studio in Troy, NY. The Studio is Austin Recording Studio. My good friend Greg Guba is recording a demo album and wanted me to record this duet that we usually sing together when we play gigs. This is an amazing song that he has written. When I walked into that studio I was completely nervous and well…. not very confident. It didn’t last for long because when that music started and I had to sing, it just came out! It was like a force came over me (believing it was God) and I belted out the words. This complete peace and serenity came over me. It was the same feeling that I used to get when I played shows or just played in my room by myself.
God blessed me with music as a saving Grace in my life as well. I don’t know how many times that instead of purging I would pick up my guitar and purge through music. My singing and writing music has literally SAVED my life. I need to get back to that. It is amazing how God puts people in your life to help you realize and get back to those things. Another friend of mine Keith told me that if I didn’t attend his open mic on this Wednesday evening he would find me and actually force me up on that stage. Sometimes God sends people in order to smack you over the head in order to get his point across!
So in conclusion I have learned that NO ONE’S opinion of me should EVER dictate my actions. Especially when those opinions are given in a harsh matter or carelessly. GOD always has the last say and HE should always be the one you look to. If you love to do something and God has blessed you with the ability….you NEED TO DO IT! You never know what God is going to do with this gift for HIS purpose and glory.
So I ask…. what have you been ignoring, avoiding, or even afraid to go back to?
“It is the one and only Spirit who distributes all these gifts. He alone decides which gift each person should have.” –1 Corinthians 12:11